I love watching the changes in season. The sunny winter afternoons and the first buds and flowers beginning to show, as if spring were nearly here. It feels hopeful, makes you feel a little more energised. Makes you want to get up in the morning and get outside. We had a lovely windswept walk around Anglesey Abbey this afternoon, enjoying the snowdrops and winter garden. What a stunning place.
I’ve been doing some hard thinking this week. I’ve been doing a lot of listening recently, asking questions, getting advice. It seems really obvious, but unless you take charge yourself, decide how to change for the better, take it upon yourself to do things to achieve what you want, all the good advice in the world isn’t going to do you any good. The ball is in your court, nobody else can make you feel better, or achieve what you want, unless you decide to go out and make it happen. I always thought I lived that way—my own happiness and my own achievements are mine to make happen. But I realised (and not really for the first time) how much I wait for other people’s approval or explanation, as if my own opinions and thoughts aren’t good enough. And I listen to the negative more than I listen to the positive. And here’s the most important thing I realised—you have to treat yourself as you would treat a loved one. Nurture and be kind to yourself. Start listening to the positive voice.